This world is cruel right??
Why is it so cruel??
Oh no..the humans are the one that carved the cruelty....
Why does human have to be in this way?
Isn't it the world is much a better place when all human only do good deeds and speak good words and have good minds?
Just hate things...hate people's mouth....for engraving ugly things!!!!

The day after tonight...

I'm afraid...too afraid....just too afraid.....beyond afraid...
No other words best describe...
I'm putting a smile...but does any human know how much my heart aches...how bitter it is???
There were so many things disturbing...
There were so many problems that kept in this fragile heart of mine....
I thought that I won't be shedding a single tears after all...

but why is it tougher to do than crying??
Is like weeping straight from my heart.....
I don't find any meaning of life and is so empty with tonnes of things that can't be solved....

Just too afraid of it.....will I go through it??

~The Color of the Night~

"The Color Of The Night"

You and I moving in the dark

Bodies close but souls apart

Shadowed smiles and secrets unrevealed

I need to know the way you feel

I'll give you everything I am

And everything I want to be

I'll put it in your hands

If you could open up to me oh

Can't we ever get beyond this wall

'Cause all I want is just once

To see you in the light

But you hide behind

The color of the night

I can't go on running from the past

Love has torn away this mask

And now like clouds like rain I'm drowning and

I blame it all on you

I'm lost - God save me...

'Cause all I want is just once

To see you in the light

But you hide behind

The color of the night

'Cause all I want is just once

Forever and again

I'm waiting for you, I'm standing in the light

But you hide behind

The color of the night

Please come out from

The color of the night

!!!!!

今年娘娘说....:

There will be a lot of 小人 by my side. Well, that is not a wonder to me as I knew that there are a lot of 小人 all this while. Especially those who are "too free", who have nothing to do after they eat rice....the one who like to talk about people behind. Guess those people like to smell people's backside I suppose. Oh pleaseee, so free after eating, find some good deed to do. Mind those people that, there is such thing as respect towards others. Just not to be too harsh of my words, I still believe in karma. Please for those, take a mirror and have some self reflection of yourself first and what you are up to. Reflect back of your doings, treatment towards others, the words that came out from your mouth and have some self-enlightenment, before you have the rights to jaga tepi kain orang!!!

For me, I'll just remain neutral and free as if nothing happened for that I believe of what goes around comes around..but...I'll never have a good impression towards those, only that, to add up a thicker barrier in front my eyes, mind and speech!!!

Period.

C'est La Vie

That's Life...yeah...That's Life...

That's life when life begin to change while you are just in the beginning to like it...
That's life when you have to stop loving a person that meant the universe to you...
That's life when a person have to stop loving you while life begin to change...
That's life when two person that were madly in love, but can't be together...
That's life when letting go is the only choice...
That's life when there were no way out at all...
That's life when you start to question of why things can't be as easy for a smooth sail...
That's life when we always failed to satisfied ourselves, our needs...
That's life when nothing is perfect...
That's life when words can't really describe how tough life as it is.........

C'est La Vie~~~

Forty-One Days of Hiatus

Signs of abandoning you again. Sorry sorry dear bloggie. Guess the entire 1 month and 10 days were too passive. Totally ran out of ideas and thoughts. Probably, I'd reached a level with no thoughts and opinions at all. Well, I just need to start the ball rolling again...for it to spin to higher velocity and things would just speed up, ideas will just flow, thinking will just turned to be critical....

I just hope to stay focused in everything that I should be responsible with. Have heart and stay focus. Listen to what dad and mom said. I knew they have high hopes in me. I knew that I should be striving for the best...to make them proud. Apart of that, I hope I can control my emotions and temper properly....