Monday, November 29, 2010

As the numbers gettin' larger and larger.....


Have you thought of who were the first person or first few close friends that you met in the kindy? Or the closet friend that you have or had when you start your primary? Or whoever that made you cried and hate them so much during your primary school time? Indeed, I'm sure just like me and everyone's memory, there will be a deep impression of some unforgettable events or people during the childhood period. I can say that some of it are still vividly in memory but some of it might have completely vanished, only to be recalled when you saw some familiar names or faces in some social networking sites. It is such a funny thing in this thing called "fate". It made us meet the person in our lives and sometimes it takes it away with the hatred, love, silence, fightings...or whatever that might happened in between. It is such a funny thing that you can dislike a peer so much during childhood, and eventually, that person might end up being a good friend and I've even seen some becoming lovers.

In anyways, as the age is adding up in the years to come, I've realized there are so many things will no longer the same. Our thinking, mindset, outlook towards life... generosity and selfishness towards the people around, they are changing as time goes by. In fact. the fighting to get the best in life made us changed adding up to the responsibilities on hand as we grew older. There are so many types of people now, in this big big sophisticated world...different faces, different names and the complex part is = human with different attitude. Some may need companions and some prefer to be lonesome. Some may be selfish and carefree. Some may be generous and selfless. Some may be outspoken. Some may be timid. These are just the nature of a human's attitude and how the effect of the things surrounding them as they grew up towards their outlook and thinking.

It is the fate that a human can't determined of who will come into their lives and may stay or might leave. The fate is the one that determine the causes of their doings and acts. Regardless of that, a human can certainly add some control to their destiny. Destiny is predetermined in our own, very own hands, although it is small. We're the one that control the choices and alternatives landed for us....

So.....no matter what the consequences (better days, rough days, laughters, tears), it is the choice that we've made our own and it is the non-humanistic determinant that control the outcomes...
The most important thing is to bear in mind and foresee our responsibilities clear towards what are the right thing that we should do. For instance, filial piety and nothing above that...and be a merciful person because whatever that goes around from your hands, are the one that comes around back to your own hands, scattered towards the people around in your fate.



Tuesday, November 23, 2010

~Need some Blessings~

Done with my 2nd last final exam in uni. Think I had did it horribly this time around. Never felt this way before. Anyhow, things have been felt to be indifferent for me. No feelings of finishing exam nor excitements. Just out for some meals right after any breaks in between. Probably thinking of the dark and gloomy and so so so much more challenges to come in the days ahead, I'm outta of the mood most of the time. No holidays despite is a break. I hope things won't be as triple-fold difficult. I need some blessings and lucky stars...like how I bottled up the stars and with all the wishing in each of it....



Wednesday, November 17, 2010

~Like-a-Rainbow~

The L.O.V.E that we shared...
was just like the rainbow...
waited in anticipation to be seen...
something that is so beautiful...
but...
it only appeared once in a blue moon...
only at the 45 degrees of a rainy sunny sky and sometimes it isn't complete...
and...
it only last at an instant and very soon disappeared...
just like the L.O.V.E we shared...

The rainbow that appeared is so beautiful with the colors that simply cheer anyone's sight. Too bad it only appears on certain circumstances and even when it does, it should be only in a very very short period of time. There were so much memories of the past that I'm still crying on each night. I just can't help it. Is so short. So short of something so beautiful and I could never recaptured it by any means. I think I never will. All that I have was the expression that I put it in words to resemble how much emotion that I'm going through despite being told to live the presence and future...not the past.

Monday, November 8, 2010

A lot a lot a lot of memories.....flashed through

There were so many things I want to blog about. Just because of time constraint, not many updates were made and even there are, it is a very short and simple post. By the way, final exam has just started. I guess there's so many memories of final exams here in UTeM since I've started uni life back in 2005. In a blink of eyes, I'm already now in final year and this time around is my 10th final examinations in uni. Anyway, of so many exams, this time around is a complete different feeling as my life has changed so much providing even the marking system has changed to a higher weightage. Regardless of that, I'm still standing strong although I'm no longer holding so tight on things. Still fighting for the papers. 1 down and 5 more to go. The counting downs...........

Modeling and Simulation (DONE)

Project Management (DONE)

Business Entrepreneurship (DONE)

CNC Technology (DONE)

Engineers in Society (DONE)

Lean Manufacturing (DONE)

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FYP I Presentation

Sunday, October 31, 2010

Miss Vs. Love

I thought that I could completely forget about you. But I could not. Being in this situation of nowhere to be in, I just wish you are here. I wish you are here to hug me tightly...to cuddle me...and wrapped me in the warm of your arms. I just miss you being my cure for the rough days I have to get through and the comfortable massage that you'll give me when I said I'm tired...and the words of comfort that bring the best out in me...and of course I will never forget of how the way you would tickled me so that I'll be laughing away...and how silly and mischievous of me for some revenge on you..and how we felt so comfortable being at each other's side despite the pressure you are in...somehow, there were the attachment that I can't describe in between us...I just felt comfortable having you in my sight and how serene you felt when I'm around... I just miss you so much...still...after all. I miss you...but does that mean I still love you? or probably I just miss you and hate you? Is just too deep that I can't pull myself out and it still hurt me so badly. Listening to those songs, would always remind me of you and the times that we had shared although is short. I have nothing left..no matter how much I cried till I can't cry now...things are no longer going to be the same and it won't return me our time. Nothing I can do. Nothing. No matter how much I thought I could forget about you gradually, I still can't completely yet. I miss you for everything that I do, I just wish you are here by me....by my side. I knew that no one could actually replaced you and the sparks that had happened in between us...you were the best thing that had happened to me...and you are also the best thing that never happen to me ever again.......

*just need to talk a little...so I'll felt better with all the stress and rough days...

Friday, October 29, 2010

Remembering Psoriasis

29 th October ~ In Honor of the World Psoriasis Day


World Psoriasis Day is an annual day specially dedicated to the people with psoriasis....

No discrimination. They deserve a normal life too....
People who suffers from this disease are battling more in emotion compared to the disease that physically seen on them....
painfully in themselves...

It made them hate themselves so much....crying in silent in their heart...sometimes, is too much to bear until it prolongs suicide for some who could not take it...

So...help them...and stop making them hate themselves....

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Grant me a Serenity

When I lose the spirit of fighting at this critical time and rough period....

and alone for a while searching through the dark.....

With no light could be seen ahead the bended path.....

with the only path that is growing darker as I walked....

All I do is to pick myself up and keep on moving....

To weave by picking up the pieces that remain....

and put myself in silent PRAYERS....

and flashing to the words of anticipation...

playing like a silent movie in front of the screen of mind.....

and gradually increasing the volume knob at the sides of amplified mind....
so to keep me strong...
of the uncertain....

so not to be defeated....
by the hailstorm in the heart.....

~Serene~


Another long night and day. I forgotten what is life routine now or don't even have a life to be frank. My sleeping schedule is out. My eating schedule is out. My workout schedule is out. Just because to allocate the time to finish the messy piles of work. I'm so tired and worn out. I don't even have time to take care of myself. Is all mess...mess...I hate the feeling!!!